• Why I Only Have One Child
    Health,  Motherhood

    Why I Only Have One Child

    When my son was about six months old, the comments began. Time for another one, they said. He needs a sibling. At first I laughed it off. I blamed lack of sleep and fresh memories of childbirth. But with each of my son’s milestones, my excuses started to get weaker and weaker. Because the truth felt shameful: my body and mind were too broken to have another baby.  I’d been developing Chronic Fatigue Syndrome for years, but it flared to its worst form when my son was eight months old. I was bed-bound for weeks at a time, too exhausted to do anything but breastfeed and crippled by guilt that I couldn’t…

  • Health,  Sustainability

    A City Girl’s Guide To Composting

    I always thought of myself as a true Midwestern girl—descended from farmers, with grit and dirt in my blood. Then I went to work on an organic farm. According to the real farmers, I was a city girl who didn’t know the first thing about dirt. These people grew food in the desert, made their own worm tea (a natural fertilizer that smells just as lovely as it sounds), and used composting toilets. That’s right: one of my jobs was to empty the poop buckets into the compost pile. It was really special. By the end of the summer, I had no complaints about returning to “city life” with flush toilets…

  • My Chronic Fatigue Story
    Health,  Personal Updates

    My Chronic Fatigue Story

    Three years ago, I had a new baby, a new job, and a one-way ticket to France. This seemed surprisingly normal to me. I’d been in the habit of clustering major life changes. Within a few months of graduating college, I was engaged and traveling in Turkey. Three weeks after Sam and I got married, we moved to Kosovo and began work in missions. When I got pregnant, we made another international move. This was our life: bold, adventurous, invincible. Until it wasn’t. Today, I have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and spend about 75% of my time in bed. Like many people with CFS, I also struggle with intermittent brain fog, memory…